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Waking up from the American dream

Your key planet Saturn is through with testing you for a while, but this doesn't mean you can shirk responsibilities. You know the truth and you are ready to deal with it, even if the circumstances in your life are still unstable. Don't struggle with the consequences of your ambition. Ease up; it's better to arrive late with a smile on your face than not at all.

That is honestly a fair assessment of what is going on.

What a wonderful show.

Outline

Our Beautiful Capital

• Writers
  • Journalist
  • Novelist
• High School Student
• Hired guns
• Poverty stricken individual
• Urbanite
  •  Thief 
• Stay at home mom
• Factory manager

Still in the works.

Plots all intertwined for an interesting reading experience.

I wear a crown to feel better about myself.

Today I came to the shocking realization that I am gorgeous.

I went upstairs and looked in the mirror and grinned from ear to ear.

I don't care what anyone says! Short hair is such a great change. I love it.

As everyday passes I start to feel better and better about who I am.

        Thank you world!

My mother is reading, "I Like You" By Amy Sedaris.

I love my family. haha.

The kids are diggin' up a brand new hole
Where to put deadbeat mom
Grandpa's happy watching video porn
With the closed-caption on
And father knows best
About suicide and smack

Mistakes were made.

According to an Email that i received from Laurie Eppink at 1:27PM today..

I AM A CAMP CONSULAR!!!

Apparently there was a mistake. I feel so good.

Everyone. Be proud of me, because I am truely on my way to being the happiest I have ever been.

I'm almost there. I just need your help and your love.

CAKE weather out there...

I need your arms around me, I need to feel your touch
I need your understanding, I need your love so much

Something special is happening.

Don't doubt what we have.

Everything is getting better.

Love and peace,

JayD.

Today.

After cleaning and actually making my basement liveable I have had some good things happen.

It seems like a weight has been lifted off of my chest. Things will all get better and I know it. I know what's next and i'm excited! Who wouldn't be?

Finally got to stenciling. And i realized that stenciling out small letters close together is like playing a horribly scary game of operation because one small mistake and it's ruined! The shirt will turn out SO cool i'm really excited.

I've also decided that i'm going to start that short story of mine. I just need to plot it all out and just write an hour a day.

I have been exercising on and off lately but now i'm going to do it everyday. After I do those pushups or run that mile I just feel so good! It's like this rush of amazement that i cannot describe. I'm sure you have experienced it before.

Some say that self improvement is masterbation... But I think it's a wonderful thing once you actually commit to it! And my commitment has only started. I. Am. Excited.

So what? Right?

-Wrong. This is a great feeling of self worth.

And to think that everyday can be like this if I just keep looking at what's next.

Once things get rolling, everything will be behind us. Only the future stands in our way

     We welcome it with open arms.

[ ! ] By the way! I looked into the British artist Mika I keep hearing so much about... He is amazing. Seriously look into him. Support good pop.

Colorfully at variance,

Jay Gephart.